I hate to be the one bringing up the Recon Federation of Club Penguin (RFCP) in 2026. Former members like myself and Sidie follow the golden rule: “Don’t speak of them, to them, or give them any sort of relevance.” This is ultimately what led to their decline, and I’d like to keep it that way. Unfortunately, there are exceptions to this rule.
The return of army veteran Shad has led me, Sidie, and Phoebe to revisit our experiences with him back in 2019. Justifiably, there was a great deal of community focus on the misconduct of Prior Bumble in the autumn of 2019. This post is not intended to diminish any of that, but rather to discuss Shad, whose similar behavior flew under the radar. Time does not heal all, and the community stance towards Prior Bumble serves as a testament to that.
Authors Note:
- CONTENT WARNING: Contains references to mature topics and themes unsuitable to those under the age of 18. Reader discretion is advised.
- When discussing our time in RFCP, it is often easier for me and other victims to refer to Prior Bumble using he/him pronouns, as we only knew Prior as someone who presented as male. I will be using he/him pronouns for Prior Bumble throughout this post.
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What to Know
Though there aren’t many of us left to fully tell the story of our RFCP experiences, enough is known for even the new generation of army members to understand the basics. Prior Bumble was abusive, manipulative, and fostered an explicit environment that was unsafe for minors and young people. Many of his victims were young women between the ages of 18 and 20.
Many of us had already experienced various forms of trauma in the months leading up to our enlistment in RFCP, and those experiences continued to affect us while we were in the army. I won’t speak for the other girls, but I became enraptured by Prior Bumble and RFCP because of the trauma and instability I was experiencing in my personal life.
Prior Bumble was 25 years old, presented as male, and was a certified crisis counselor. He was familiar with the signs of trauma—what to look for and how to offer support. The leadership dynamic in the army is unlike anything I have seen elsewhere. Prior demanded worship and recognition as Commander-in-Chief, positioning himself as a sole provider, a father, and a husband all at once. Not abiding by this vision—talking back or questioning him in any way—resulted in severe punishment.
Between these so-called “therapy sessions,” the framing of RFCP as a family, the distorted power dynamics, and the eventual sexual encounters, it didn’t take long before RFCP and Prior completely consumed me. It did not feel safe to question what was happening, out of fear of punishment. I witnessed other girls being banned and cut off from every one of their RFCP friends for speaking out against him.
Without my family or any stable real-life support system, the army’s misconduct became normalized in my mind. For a long time, I wasn’t strong enough to stand up for myself or for others. I knowingly endured abuse, believing I deserved it. I constantly made excuses for Prior’s treatment of me, minimizing it to myself because, without him and RFCP, I truly believed I had nothing else in my life.
I want to clarify, Prior Bumble is not the focus of this post. To tell this story properly, it’s important for you, the reader, to understand the state many of us girls were in. Without that essential context it lessens the severity of what I will be describing.
I am fortunate to have access to an export of several RFCP channels, including the mod logs spanning from October 8, 2019, to November 29, 2022. Some of these logs will be referenced throughout this post. It is important to note that, until late January 2020, the main users with moderator permissions within the RFCP Discord were Prior Bumble and WolfyDaEmotaku. It should be explicitly stated for the record that Wolfy was a minor, under the age of 16 at the time. RFCP was infamously known for its extreme lack of moderation. The logged incidents I will describe do not account for every instance of explicit conduct.
The events described in this post took place between October 2019 and late January 2020. Although other victims were affected, this post focuses on detailed accounts from myself, Sidie, and Phoebe, all former members of the Recon Federation. To fully explain the extent of what Shad did to us, it is necessary to revisit the past and provide the appropriate context.
Who is Shad?
Shad is an army veteran dating back to 2006. From what I have seen on his CPA Wiki, he has led several small/medium armies throughout his years of activity. Currently, he is leading Fort Ghost Recon alongside former Scarlet Republic leader Ghostt. Besides what Sidie has told me privately, I really don’t know much about him or his history. He is well known among veterans of his time.
I met him when he first joined the Recon Federation server in October of 2019, sometime after Kailey310 posted her first “open letter” about RFCP. Serving as Club Penguin Army News Network CEO at the time, it didn’t take long for Shad to develop close relationships with several girls (aged 18-20) within the Recon Federation, myself, Sidie, and Phoebe included. He was 25 to 26 years old at the time and was allegedly engaged and serving in the military.
Describing RFCP as a patriarchal society is an understatement, and frankly something Prior Bumble would see as a compliment. But readers should know that the value of men within the Recon Federation was generally regarded as higher than that of women. Prior Bumble’s friendship with Shad eventually led to him being deemed RFCP’s “Uncle,” a title reserved for Prior’s closest male friends. Shad was portrayed within the army as someone to trust and look up to.
Additionally, on November 21, 2019, Shad and 4ic Redbackwards (a minor) were made “Guardian” (admin) of the RFCP server following Prior Bumble’s brief retirement. With server ownership transferred to Wolfy, this meant that Shad became one of only three members (and the only adult) with any type of moderator permissions and authority over the server. As shown in the below images from RFCP’s high command chat, Prior’s original plan was to give Shad full ownership of the RFCP server. It should also be mentioned that in December of 2019, Prior Bumble was considering naming Shad his successor in RFCP. I am sharing this to clearly demonstrate the significance of Shad’s role and place within the Recon Federation.
RFCP’s normalization of sexual dynamics and discussions led to several sexually suggestive conversations between the girls and Prior in the main chat. Prior Bumble’s role in this dynamic has been widely criticized as coercive, constituting an abuse of power and an exploitation of young and mentally unwell women. Shad himself soon became involved in these same types of discussions.
RFCP’s main chat has long since been deleted, but the mod logs I recovered offer a partial picture of what occurred. Shad was not the only person who participated in these discussions, as again this behavior had become normalized within the Recon Federation. However, as I describe the events of this story, his involvement must be acknowledged.
Discussions Move Outside of Server
Behind the scenes, Shad and us girls grew increasingly close. Several of us began confiding in him about Prior’s poor treatment and the feeling that we were being pitted against one another. We shared personal details about our lives and our mental health. He became someone we turned to when we needed to vent or simply be heard. More than most, Shad understood our struggles and insecurities. He witnessed firsthand the harm behind Prior Bumble’s behavior and how it affected us. He formed individual relationships with each of us girls, using our insecurities as ways to become closer with us.
Around the beginning of November, Prior’s sexual interactions with us girls began to shift to direct messages. He created a group chat called “Prior’s Girls,” where he sent erotic messages to all of us. It was expected of us to interact and respond as he requested. Similarly, a chat titled “Shad’s Girls” was created by Shad, including several of the same participants. I was unable to recover definitive evidence that this Shad chat existed, so aside from this reference within RFCP’s logs, readers will have to rely on our account.
Sidie
Sidie and Shad were acquaintances in OG armies. They were in the same circles, as they were both S/M army leaders. Though she knows they had spoken before, Sidie didn’t know him well, as she was significantly younger than him. To put things into perspective, Sidie was 13 years old when Shad retired to join the military in 2013.
As Sidie had just come out as transgender in early 2019, she was experiencing immense gender dysphoria, body image issues, and lacked confidence in herself. This led to issues with alcohol, along with other mental health crises that Shad himself was aware of. When she confided in Shad about how uncomfortable Prior Bumble was making her feel, he comforted her and supported her.
When Sidie was doxxed and outed as transgender to the army community, Shad was supportive and kind. These actions demonstrated to Sidie a belief that Shad was a good person and genuinely cared for her wellbeing. She was at a very sensitive and impressionable time in her life, and she craved support and validation from others. Shad was there to give her this, and as a result they became close friends.
The context I’ve provided so far should paint a clear picture. One that shows Shad being viewed as a trusted and caring friend, someone who Sidie could trust and look up to. He was aware of several issues she was experiencing, both in armies and in her personal life. Despite this, he used his position in her life to pressure her to send nudes on several occasions.
As you can see in the slideshow of evidence below, Shad often asked Sidie for explicit photos knowing she was under the influence of drugs and alcohol. When Sidie expressed her insecurities, Shad tried to convince her that sharing explicit photos to him would make her feel better. Shad was relentless, requesting images specifically through Discord, and continuing to request photos even when he was told no. These tactics ultimately resulted in Shad receiving explicit photos from Sidie on multiple occasions. To add to the severity, in the middle of asking for nudes, Shad paused his request to moderate Jemma within RFCP’s main chat (Screenshot 3, from the below gallery).
A series of screenshots detail Shad getting upset at Sidie for failing to respond to his sexual message quick enough. He is clearly seen trying to guilt Sidie, then he proceeds to once again ask for nudes. Following this encounter, Shad proceeds to ask Sidie to edit a post for his media organization. (Screenshots 15, 16, 17, 18, from the below gallery)
These screenshots demonstrate that not only was Shad aware of Sidie’s mental state, he knowingly took advantage of it. Directly using her insecurities as a means of convincing her to send nudes, his own sexual gratification was proven to be his ultimate priority. As I have emphasized throughout this post, Shad was 25 while Sidie was 19. As demonstrated in the screenshots, he had authority over her in both the Recon Federation and his own media organization, holding admin positions in both servers. Remember that Shad was given Guardian in the RFCP server on November 21st, 2019. This means that a majority of these incidents took place as he held full authority within the army that Sidie was ranked in.
Worth noting is the fact that during this period, Sidie purchased a domain upgrade for Shad’s CPANN organization. Acquired on the 28th of November 2019, this purchase took place after the sexual encounters had begun. At the beginning of 2020, Sidie was removed from the CPANN organization without notice, serving to demonstrate her expendability in Shad’s eyes.
This is how Shad spent his time in the Recon Federation. Between Sidie, myself, Phoebe, and other young women, Shad worked his way through all of us. Behind the scenes it was all the same. Showing interest in us, our struggles, then proceeding to pressure us for nudes when he thought he had gained our trust. No matter how many times we ignored his requests, or changed the subject, he was relentless and continued to ask.
Shallissa
My experiences with Shad are less documented as I no longer have access to my old Discord account. Though less detailed, the screenshots I do have from our old DMs paint a similar picture. Just like he did with Sidie, he attempted to frame sending nudes as a “confidence booster“. Note the dates in the screenshots, as you will notice how he was using these tactics on all of us girls at the same time.
Phoebe
As Phoebe has also lost access to her old account, she has provided a personal statement describing her experience with Shad.
During my time knowing Shad in 2019, he regularly acted inappropriately toward me and other girls in the server. He would repeatedly ask for nudes, make uncomfortable sexual comments, and cross boundaries. At the time, I didn’t fully know how to respond to the situation, especially because this behavior became normalized in the server environment. He was doing this all while having a girlfriend, and tried to claim he talked to girls like this in order to “get close to Prior.”
Shad Knew
Conversations between Shad and Sidie once again prove the existence of the “Shad’s Girls” group chat, in which group sexting would occur, instigated by Shad himself. Through Shad’s attempts and manipulation in acquiring explicit photos from Phoebe, she had grown attached to him. Readers should note that Phoebe was 18 years old during this time, experiencing her own share of mental instability and insecurities. Given our shared attachment to Prior Bumble during this time, why would attachment to Shad be any different?
He once again returned to the narrative of “sending nudes can build confidence”, something he had both me, Sidie, and Phoebe fooled by. He had knowingly targeted vulnerable young women with these encounters, the fact that some of us developed feelings should have been of no surprise to him. Even if he truly was naive, surely this conversation would have been a wake up call to him? You’d think so, but in Shad’s case it was absolutely not. The dates attached to the evidence provided in this post proves that his sexual harassment continued between all three of us girls.
As We Continue
All of us girls were already in an environment where we were being sexualized by Prior Bumble for his own personal gratification. Our confidence diminished, feeling constantly belittled by RFCP superiors, why wouldn’t this feel normal to us? Why would Shad’s behavior set off any red flags in our heads when the acceptance of Prior Bumble’s abusive tactics took us months (in my case over a year) to process?
Let’s jump back to the beginning of the story. As I will soon explore, Shad claimed to have joined RFCP’s server with the intention of confirming if the explicit conduct within the Recon Federation was true. When he found out it was, did he make any attempt to help the victims? Did he expose the extent of what it was like within the ranks? The truth behind the manipulation, the misconduct, the horrible moderation? Each reader knows the answer to those questions, given it took over two years to oust Prior Bumble for good. Instead, Shad participated in the very misconduct he swore to “investigate”, all while hurting the same group of victims. Just like Prior, Shad was 5-7 years older than us. Together, their maturity and standing within RFCP was greater than ours. With both Shad and Prior in a position of authority and influence, it was easier for us to go along with it than to question things or cause a scene. Most importantly to us at the time, showing any signs of discomfort could have potentially compromised our friendships with other RFCP members. Given our mental states and Prior Bumble’s tendency to isolate his members from the wider army community, we felt completely alone. This wasn’t about what felt right or wrong to us, all of us were in survival mode, willing to sacrifice our own wellbeing for a place within the RFCP family.
Shad’s “Exposé” Post
As I proceed with this next section of the post, the details I have provided so far become especially important to note. On the 17th of January, 2020, Shad released an exposé post titled “About Order 66 Revised”. As we continue I intend to finally address the betrayal and deception he demonstrated through this horrible post.
Back in October 2019 I started a mission on my own, but along with RPF as well. I kept hearing awful things about an army called Recon Federation of Club Penguin as well as a guy named Prior Bumble. I didn’t believe them at first, but then I decided to begin this mission. My goal was to find out who Prior Bumble really was. So I decided to join RFCP and get a feel on my own. I saw how they acted on everything and what they said on the main chat. Not gonna lie, I was shocked. They would say disturbing things at first on the main server. Everything Kailey said in her open letter was true regarding the main channels and such.
Without the full context of what I’ve proven throughout this post Shad has already tried to portray himself as an investigator and a savior. Acting shocked about what occurred in RFCP’s chat while completely omitting his contributions. This asserts him as a protector, as if he was simply trying to understand the truth, but we know now that this was far from the case.
With that said, I don’t exactly need to go over that part. I then decided to play with RFCP a bit and then I noticed that Eva formed an army called PIC. She formed that army and that is when I saw that she became allies with RFCP. I talked to her and we planned out NCPO. She would help me spy on Prior Bumble and get close with him. New Club Penguin Order was originally going to form with ACP, RPF, LGA, and PIC. This was going to happen after PIC made a huge swerve and turn on RFCP after her dispute with ACP.
However, Eva got too close with enemy and fell in love with Prior. That is when things went wrong. I then had to play it out more and decided to take things upon myself. I then became best friends with Prior so I could get more info. I then was going to have Elp become a spy for me, but then realized that after the whole Eva situation, I cant trust anybody. So I took it upon myself.
Lies lies and more lies. Sidie, who went by Eva at the time, never once had an agreement with Shad to spy on Prior Bumble. To this day, she has no idea what his goal was with this narrative. He was not a mastermind making things happen behind the scenes as he tried to portray. He attempted to use Sidie as a scapegoat for his questionable behavior. Sidie, just like myself and the rest of the girls, fell for the Prior Bumble illusion. However, Shad attempted to frame this as if she was lost to the “dark side” and betrayed him. There was no agreement in the first place, therefore no betrayal, her involvement in “spying” was completely made up.
So here we have Shad, one of Prior Bumble’s closest friends, a figurehead close with league administrators and other high profile community members at the time. He clearly needed an out, an explanation as to why he affiliated with Prior Bumble for so long. “I wanted to get nudes from the RFCP girls” surely wouldn’t cut it, so he fabricated an entire story, likely in an attempt to gain understanding and sympathy for his affiliation to Prior Bumble.
Once NDA formed I saw how much of a pansies Prior truly was. Rather than acting in conflict they ran from it. They turned Armies into a political movement, or cult if you will, by protesting the CPA League. After realizing that it wasn’t gonna go anywhere they decided to rejoin back. Then, Kailey ended up coming with her open letter document. I will say this, everything in that is mostly true from what I have gathered from my investigation.
The NDA refers to the New Dawn Alliance, something that is not relevant to my writing but I’ll clarify it anyways. Here Shad is once again trying to portray himself as a mastermind, as if every move he made throughout this process was orchestrated and well thought out. His statements from this section are absolutely true: the first being that Prior Bumble is a pussy, the second being that everything from Kailey’s open letter (detailing RFCP misconduct) was true. So what’s the issue here? Shad has once again left out his role in the “findings from his investigation”. He not only engaged in sexual discussion in public RFCP chats, he took it a step further and coerced several young women for nudes.
Let’s once again point out that Shad was Prior Bumble and RFCP affiliated from October 2019 through late January 2020. This gave him over four months to expose the real truth about Prior Bumble and help the minors and victims escape the environment. Has the irony slapped you across the face yet? Putting aside the fact that Shad had the trust and respect of Prior Bumble, and could have pushed for genuine reform within the RFCP server, he had the trust of Prior Bumble’s victims. He had countless opportunities to help us get out, to get us to see that we were worth more than Prior’s abuse, but he instead chose to make us victims of his own.
Right after all that they tried to make it look like they changed the server and put 18+ protection on almost everything. However, they still do everything in the main channel and don’t hold back on convos. This is where it gets really interesting. Prior and I then talked and he gave me his trust. He made me a Guardian of the server and gave me admin perms. There wasn’t anything in the HCOM chat like i was hoping to find, but I was able to get info for RPF. So I gave Ulti everything and all the plans that RFCP had for the future. Prior then left the community for about a week. This right here is just disturbing because it shows that he made a cult like aspiration for RFCP. For him to return the army had to work together and create Club Penguin Warfare. Which they ended up doing. Eva, didn’t really want to create CPW at first, she was only doing it for Prior. While this was going down, I decided to see what I could do. I tested out seeing if I could get their following and trust. I even resorted to unethical behavior, which I did not like, but I was desperate and pressed on time with Prior being gone. I resorted to talking to the female heads of the army Eva and Sha as well as Phoebe to see if I could change their mind from Prior. It did not work the whole process didnt work. Reason being is because I resorted to seeing if I actually had their trust. I asked Sha for nudes a few times to see if she would tell Prior or not, in which she did.
Ummmm hellooo? We have multiple confessions now. Shad once again confirms that sexual discussions occurred in RFCP’s main channel, once again withholding the truth of his participation. Shad then acknowledges that he had Prior Bumble’s full trust along with admin permissions in the Recon Federation server. He admits to leaking information to Ultipenguinj (RPF leader at the time), however there is no evidence of this in his post. If this is true that is now two external people who were aware of Prior Bumble’s behavior who had not stood up or advocated for the minors and victims.
I’m gonna ignore some of his rambling to address the elephant in the room. Shad has once again lied, this time saying he attempted to change our minds about Prior. There is no evidence to suggest this claim is true, and even if it was, how would that work when he was participating in the same behaviors he would be condemning Prior Bumble for? More irony, Shad has left us very familiar with it by now.
But wait, there’s more! Shad has confirmed that he resorted to unethical behavior out of desperation, including asking me for nudes “to see if I would tell Prior”. Give me a break, I think by now we can all see through the attempts to manipulate public perception. Out of all of the girls, I was the most unstable and the most likely to make a public outrage. If anyone was going to release evidence of Shad asking for nudes, it would be me. With that in mind, it is safe to assume this was his attempt to get ahead of potential leaks from me. Where is the mention of the nudes he asked for (and received) from other girls in RFCP? Once again he tried to portray himself as a “mastermind” with well thought out plans and tactics.
Anything to escape the truth. Shad benefitted from RFCP’s normalization of sexual topics and the manipulation of young women just as much as Prior Bumble himself did during that time period.
So then that plan backfired so I joined CPW as admin. I gained Priors ultimate trust with him giving me his phone number. After seeing how he was leading CPW that is when I decided to step down especially with me having to rejoin the marines. I didn’t have much time. So I started my plan on forming NCPO on CPW. I just had to get the ball moving. I had to figure out how I was going to do this. I then saw PCP and PZF move completely over to CPW as well as a few others and that is when now was perfect. Here are my reasons for this strike:
Before we even go into his reasons for the “strike” what does he mean his plan backfired? Evidence from Sidie’s direct messages with Shad confirms that he was attempting to start a new league around the same time Club Penguin Warfare (CPW, Prior Bumble’s league) was created. Here you can also see Shad guilting Sidie for purchasing the CPW domain for Prior Bumble, just one week before she purchased Shad’s CPANN domain. It is safe to say his guilt tripping was successful.
If this was as planned out as he has portrayed, it is hard to feel like any of these plans backfired when he has directly benefitted every step of the way. Through Prior Bumble, Shad was given direct access to vulnerable young women who would flirt with him and send him nudes, and the opportunity to serve as administrator in a brand new army league. Tell me exactly how any of this was a bad thing for Shad? Besides public perception of Shad likely being criticized for his affiliation with Prior Bumble, there is no evidence to suggest that this was some type of plan going awry.
Behind the scenes, Sidie’s messages with Shad paints a new picture. Shad, while running CPW, was offered an administrator position in the original Club Penguin Armies organization. Talk about an upgrade! Rather than Shad having to directly work and affiliate with the controversial Prior Bumble, he now had the opportunity to be the face of the biggest opposition to the Club Penguin Online Army League. Why wouldn’t he accept that? The grass seemed greener on the other side, his association with Prior Bumble was no longer convenient to him.
How was Shad to explain his affiliation to Prior Bumble though? The amount of time and energy he invested into the Recon Federation? The truth would surely get him in big trouble. The truth being that he utilized his position as Prior Bumble’s close friend to be a serial sex pest in his army. Who would want him in the Club Penguin army community if that truth came out? Surely at this point people had started to ask questions. Shad why are you admin of Club Penguin Warfare? Why are you still friends with Prior Bumble? Though this is purely speculation, Sidie and I can only assume that this post was the answer to all of his problems!
Shad why were you in RFCP? Oh, to spy of course! All of the stuff people say about Prior Bumble is true! It took so long because Sidie stopped helping me, I had to do it all my myself! The possibility of Shallissa exposing him asking for nudes? Shad had that covered! I’m sorry I had to resort to unethical means, I just had to see who I could trust! Shad why were you so close with a lot of the girls in RFCP? I tried to save them! I wanted them to see the truth about Prior Bumble but they were too far gone.
The concept of a CPA “Order 66” was a perfect front, one that no one has ever questioned until now. The army community was so focused on the crimes of Prior Bumble that the similar behavior of others went completely unnoticed. The signs were there, this post has existed for years. All it would have taken was someone noticing the inconsistencies of his claims to unravel the entire truth. Someone reaching out to me, to Sidie, to Phoebe, even to just ask us for our side of the story would have changed everything. Instead Shad’s story has been believed for years, he has been accepted in the army community as if he is free from all wrongdoing. Why? All because Shad learned from the best, he dominated the narrative and silenced his victims just like Prior Bumble did for almost two years.
And the icing on the cake?
Last, I am leaving the community after all this and I want Prior’s empire to crumble before I leave. Prior is a toxic individual. In the RFCP Server he has a channel called
#a-room where he sexts Eva in front of ALL his troops. This behavior should not be in a Club Penguin Based Server. If you want to do that then create a whole other server for crap like that.
This is the pot calling the kettle black. The audacity of him to publicly criticize Prior while Shad himself engaged in the same type of sexual behavior. Not only did he throw Sidie under the bus, he once again attempted to villainize her instead of treating her like the victim she was. While Prior’s behavior was undeniably unacceptable, Shad is a hypocrite for acting as if he was any better. As if the evidence of his abuse wasn’t already enough, his attempts to sway public perception only expose him for the horrible person he is.
Why Now?
If the Prior Bumble scandal has taught me anything, it is that the feelings of the victims are the last to be considered. Individuals are quick to point out the crime, shun the perpetrator, and push a negative narrative. In this process the victims are often left behind, I know this because I was left behind. Out of everything Shad did, what hurts the most is that he knew exactly what we were going through and left us anyways. There was no genuine attempt to help us, everything he did was for selfish reasons. He used us the same way Prior did, and threw us to the side when we were no longer of use to him, the same way Prior did. No one questioned his narrative, he was welcomed back into the community as if nothing happened. No one cared to ask the girls involved what actually happened.
By the time Shad had left RFCP, the group of girls I’ve referenced throughout this post were no longer on good terms. Prior Bumble had split our friend group into pieces. Sidie, Phoebe and other girls, were eventually exiled, which left me alone with Prior. There was no one we could talk to about this experience, and Shad eventually fell into irrelevancy. It is worthy of noting that this is the most active Shad has been in the community since his departure in 2020. Though he has made attempts to reach out and apologize in years past, Shad has still never addressed the extent of his actions.
I haven’t posted in a while and I want to set some things straight. I have done some things I am not proud of and said some things I am not proud of. Sometimes as a reporter you have to do certain things to get a story out and I apologize about that. Last year I released a post about Priorbumble and the RFCP. I made some friends during my time in the RFCP server and when I released that post I betrayed everyone I had become friends with as well as people who looked up to me. That wasn’t me, figuratively. I was in a different place when I did that and wanted to get the article out to help the CPA Community as a whole.
I want to apologize whole heartedly to everyone in the CPA Community I have effected. Please understand the reason I did the things I did although it wasn’t the best way to go about it. I could have went a different route, but I can’t change the past. Most importantly I want to apologize to Shallisa, Sidie/Eva, Phoebe, and a bunch of others in RFCP for my actions as well as the betrayal. I know I have hurt you and I apologize for my actions. There’s nothing I can say to show how truly sorry I am.
Moving forward I will be working on building my new community server, Hang Over Gang. It will also be the place where I will be hosting the Warzone Radio series. This server is not a part of the CPA Community in general so please be aware of that. The only part that will be is the Warzone Radio. Once it grows I may move it back to its own server, but for now I am starting small. Warzone Radio will be for the CPA Community which will be the future Radio station. It will have podcasts, music, as well as fun radio shows. Below is the link for the server:
From Shad’s personal website, posted in 2021.
It is safe to say that we did not accept his apologies, as this attempt to “rectify” only made it worse. Not only was his sexual harassment not acknowledged for what it was, he wrote off his mistakes as a necessary consequence of journalism. It is clear that the apology wasn’t the purpose of the post either, as it ends with an advertisement for his new Discord group, along with an announcement for staff hirings. It was a complete slap to the face, yet another deflection of the pain and trauma he put us through. His direct apology to Sidie and I wasn’t any different. This was only a year later, the RFCP wounds were still fresh in our minds. We still hadn’t fully come to terms with what he did to us. He didn’t own up to any of the pain he caused us.
What has ultimately prompted this post is Shad himself. We had heard he returned to lead his old army, Fort Ghost Recon. Though uncomfortable, we weren’t planning on taking action until we were sent messages from him in his army’s server.
Now, nearly seven years later, we’ve come full circle. Returning after all of these years, Shad displays no understanding of the environment he helped foster through his actions. Furthermore, this seems to imply that Shad understands that Prior Bumble took advantage of someone who was mentally unwell. Now with the context of Shad’s actions detailed for all to see, this would seemingly draw us to the same conclusion in Shad’s case. Though time has allowed Shad to escape from his offenses, we will no longer allow this to continue. We won’t allow him to control the narrative of our trauma any longer.
As for us girls, we have finally accepted that what occurred was disgusting and unacceptable. Only now have conversations actually occurred between us and the remaining victims, only now have we all processed and realized how horribly Shad behaved. Regardless of what outcome this post has, we feel relieved. Shad no longer gets to control the narrative of his time in RFCP and the manipulation he put us through. It is now exposed for what it truly was the whole time, a selfish man taking advantage of vulnerable young women. A sad and quite familiar story, we find comfort in knowing that he won’t ever get away with it again.
Authored by Shallissa (HFG)
Featuring contributions from Sidie9 (HFG) and a statement from Phoebe (HFG)
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